Hiding?

Sage with rain drops, partially in the sun, and St. John's Wort coming into the picture from the shade on the left side.

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I often heard people talking about, how they are trying to hide from themselves and how challenging it is, not to do that and how afraid they are to look at themselves because they might find something ugly.

That people are trying to hide from themselves is something I could not comprehend for the longest time.

When I look at people, I see so much beauty in each and every one of them. How could anyone ever want to hide form that?

But here’s the thing:

Most people do not see this beauty within themselves. They are looking for it on the outside and don’t understand that the only reason they are able to see it, there, on the outside, is because they are beautiful on the inside.

It takes one to know one.

Those are not just empty words.

I learned it the hard way to understand how anyone can feel ugly while being bestowed upon with so much beauty.

The walls I ran into. The attacks for not being company in the misery. The throes and woes of not understanding each other. I did not understand them because I could not see their misery. I did not have that in me. They could not understand me because they just could not believe that someone is meeting them completely without judgement.

I don’t know how many people of the ones I met ever came to really understand where I came from with my innocence and my open heart and my love for everybody, everything and everyone. I know that some did and those were quite beautiful moments, when the idea of judgement just fell away.

I surely came to understand most of them. Not so beautiful moments, albeit I hope I took them as gracefully as one can be when hitting rock bottom.

It takes one to know one.

Yes, take that in for a moment. And then remember to breathe and release it. We don’t want to cause pain to each other here, as this is supposed to be a safe space.

Personally, I never wanted to hide from myself. I always just wanted to be myself. Actually, all I ever wanted was to be.

I merely learned that it can be dangerous and painful to not hide from others. So I did, occasionally. And sometimes I forgot that I was hiding. And then the world became quite a limited space.

I guess, it is different for everyone.

According to the Celtic Calendar, it is Beltane, the beginning of Summer, on May 1st. This is the time when the sun is shining brightly and casts a light upon all the dark places.

This Summer, let’s remember our beauty inside. Let’s help and support each other to let it shine out. Let’s listen – to ourselves and each other. And let’s be kind, as well.

With this in mind:

A Happy Beltane to you – and a self-same Walpurgis Night!

Are you ready to shine a bright light of awareness on the path of beingness, today?

Much Love,
Steffi