Re-Membrance and In-Sights

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Last week I wrote something On Overwhelm and spoke, among other things, about how I asked for help in prayer and the universe actually took care of me.

In fact, I have been learning a lot about faith, lately, because this is what I personally need in order to see and trust my path. This faith had suffered over the last few years for many different reasons and finally I was afraid to practise this trust in God, which kept me from experiencing trust and safety, let alone Geborgenheit*, again.

*I am explaining the meaning of the German word „Geborgenheit“, later, in this post.

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Logical really, is it not?

But if you are stuck in this fear and also have actual – thus quite objective and real – reason to be concerned about your health and safety, it is difficult to recognise this logic and even more difficult to take a perceived risk in order to follow the logic. The perceived risk: letting the “illusory” fear be (there) and still acting as if you have confidence. Something like this can feel very scary. To do this, of course, I first had to find out which fears related to real threats and dangers, and which did not.

I have not found that easy at all. Nevertheless, I took one step at a time, took one breath at a time.

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After praying for help I, for instance, received many messages with clear indications and in quiet moments I suddenly had totally clear insights into many different aspects of my life.

For example, I found the following message from Neale Donald Walsh in my Twitter timeline:

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Incidentally, this was how I used to do it almost all the time and I rarely had time slip through my fingers. That made me think. Finally, I realised something:

Often, one thinks ‘if I give my all, I will be exhausted afterwards’. But when I fully trust, the truth is that afterwards I am ful-filled – with trust & creativity.“
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Shortly afterwards, I came across a statement about how time somehow slips through one’s fingers when life is “bobbing along”:

When life ‘bobbing along’ like that, time runs even faster, somehow.“
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I had been thinking about this a lot lately, too, and a little conversation arose about it that gave me additional insight.

Already some time ago, I noticed that time seemed to slip through my fingers more and more frequently. In the past, this was often a sign that I was not completely present in the Here and Now – and it was the same, this time. Fortunately, I know what helps me to decelerate, here:

to perceive the moment very consciously, with everything that is.

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In times of a pandemic with many other scary factors in life, this can be challenging, but it helps. Ground under the feet helps to feel less anxious and more confident, no matter of what comes. And I (personally) can only fully experience this ground under my feet in the Here and Now.

And when I experience myself completely in the Here and Now, I can bring myself completely into matter, into the moment. This also works the other way round: when I am completely engaged in a matter, in the moment, I experience myself completely in the Here and Now.

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This, by the way, does not necessarily always mean that everything goes according to plan. Sometimes you make plans that do not fulfil themselves at first, and yet you experience a fulfilling time and feel fulfilled yourself. This requires the willingness to fully engage with what is now at hand.

However, in the last few years I have had the feeling more and more often that I was giving myself away rather than engaging. And that is how it was. This really pulled the rug out from under me.

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The small but fine difference:
When I am completely engaged, I am completely with myself, even when I am doing something for others.
When I give myself away, I am no longer completely with myself, I go beyond my limits and notice myself less and less.
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The above quote by Neale Donald Walsh, to always be fully engaged and not to do anything half-heartedly, tells me, at first glance, to always be completely engaged. But what it also says to me, at second glance, is: if you cannot do something whole-heartedly, then leave it be. Both is important and valid.

If I cannot put my whole heart into it, at some point I will go beyond my limits, give myself away, no longer notice myself. And it is so important to know my own healthy boundaries and accept them. This also goes hand in glove with allowing myself to say “No” when I feel it is the right thing to do.

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In order to engage fully, I need to be and stay fully with myself – and perhaps one way to engage completely is to bring my own healthy boundaries to the table.

Or to put it another way: If you embrace life, you may embrace everything that is life – even the healthy boundaries.

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Elke Overhage also wrote something about boundaries in her comment to my blog post from last week. If you like, you can read it here – in German language only:

Elke’s comment on the blog post „Zum Thema Überlastung“

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In another conversation, I drew someone’s attention to something I became aware of some time ago. I later shared this in one of my #NeunzehnDreißigImpuls-e (#NineteenThirtyImpulse-s):

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Thereupon I remembered various insights that have always helped me through life. In fact, I had almost forgotten some of them by now. Here are two of them, which I also shared with the person with whom I had the conversation:

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Celebrating the individuality we are allowed to experience, here on Earth, can help us to notice ourselves better and to be fully present.”

-Stefanie Neumann
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If God is love, perhaps it helps to love – even the ego. Then love can transform even dire experiences and there is nothing to fear.”

-Stefanie Neumann
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The term God, here, has no special religious or gender assignment for me, by the way, although these insights can probably be transferred to various religions and teachings, depending on personal orientation and personal views. In a way, they also come from there, because I have listened to many different teachers and reflected on various forms of spiritual wisdom from different directions, which ultimately led me to these insights.

If it suits you better, you can also replace the term “God” with ” Universe” or something else and “faith” with “confidence”.

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For me, faith is also a very important ingredient for *Geborgenheit. I have always felt it, but until recently I could not quite put my finger on it. In simple terms, one could perhaps say:

Safety + Faith = Geborgenheit.

Now I can finally explain this word adequately in English, because as far as I know there is no accurate translation for it.

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At this point I would like to share a lovely tip from Ute which she shared in the comments of last week’s blog post. You can read the comment here:

Ute’s comment on „On Overwhelm“

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In said comment, Ute reminds me of the wonderful work of Francois with his Sketches in Stillness – which are “little cartoons celebrating the art of living in the present moment.”

Here you can explore his homepage:

Sketches in Stillness

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What helps you to re-member and to be completely present in the Here and Now?

Are you ready to shine a bright light of awareness on the path of beingness, today?

Much Love,
Steffi
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