Samhain – The Time of Darkness. A Time to Go Inside.
Is it already the end of October, again? Am I the only one who has the feeling that earlier this year time just flew by?
The Wheel of the Year seems to have turned fast, this year. It feels to me, though, that it is slowing down, now.
For many of us there was lots’ going on. So many pressing issues needed to be addressed, that there did not seem to be much space for a check-in break. And time raced by.
For some of us, the pressing issues continue. We just have to take a look at the global situation and at all the people who travel so many miles to find refuge from war and poverty. This is a call for the world to change.
Yet, at least for me, time does not seem to race by, anymore. What has changed?
This is a question I have been pondering about for quite a while. I was already wondering about it, while the wheel was spinning round and round too fast: Why am I running out of time all the time?
I remembered that time often seems to race by when I am not completely in the Now.
Being completely in the Now means to not worry about the past or the future, to not dive into past experiences or future expectations too much. Of course, we can remember and imagine; but always with the awareness that now is Now and that we are here, Now.
With all the pressing issues, not being in the Now often was likely the case during the last months. The tricky part is that you cannot shove fears of the future aside. They will still influence your path negatively, if not addressed properly. That, at least, is what I found in my experience. So, if fears come up, they are in the Now; even when they are about the future. The same is true for feelings of shame and guilt of the past, by the way. That means it is part of the Now, to face them and feel our way through them. This way they can transform into power that supports us along our journey.
I’ve been taught that there is not much space for those negative feelings. There is no time for it. There are more important things to do. First things first.
Or in the case of the spiritually aware circles: You have to focus on the light. There is no space for darkness. Darkness is bad.
Is that true?
Apart from the fact that declaring darkness as bad and light as good means that we are practising judgement I also wonder, how darkness can be bad when so many seeds need it for the beginning of their growth; seeds which eventually blossom into beautiful flowers, powerful plants and even healing herbs.”
Also, what about finding the light that lies within dark places? And how can we notice the light without darkness in this world of duality? Is it not all the same?
And is it true that there are more important things to do than to deal with whatever comes up in the Now? Is there really a more important, more powerful time than Now? How much has it actually ever helped anyone to shove aside their feelings and suppress them?
Please get me right: I am not saying that when, for example, for somebody the feeling comes up, that they want to slap the you-know-what out of their father because he has harassed them during their childhood, that they should go and do it. It is rather the opposite:
Going out and doing it would mean to project the problem on the outside. Of course, it was a terrible experience to be harassed by the father. And of course, harassing children (or anybody else) is not something to strive for. Those things are out of the question. But projecting the problem we have with our experience of it to the outside will not change anything. Not for ourselves and not for the world. In fact, issues like harassment derive from the same habit of projecting our own stuff to the outside instead of going inside and truly facing and addressing what we find there.
So, if this feeling of wanting to go and take revenge for a terrible childhood experience comes up, we can address it by being with it. By allowing ourselves to notice what we notice and to feel what we feel. Perhaps we have to measure out the dosage we can bear and take it one bite at a time. But being with it, breathing with it means taking loving action towards ourselves, towards our health and towards self-love.
Now, I am asking you again:
Is it really something bad to face the darkness? Is there really anything more important than opening and clearing the way for love?
Love always starts on the inside. We have to love ourselves to truly be able to share it with others.
With this in mind I am wishing you:
A Happy Halloween!